everything ends- at the end.
yesterday i just thought of the death, just thought of the lonliness, of how stupid i can be to call people and find new friends, how low could i go down? i cant go down anymore than what i already am.
i just want him. nothing else. i wish i could get everything i want. i want the money so i can fly to this perfect person. and today, its his birthday, and we are one million miles away from each other.
and my best friend is not my best friend anymore. and my friends are not my friends anymore.
life is like a wheal, one day you are up there, the other day you are down, here.
and maybe im gonna look at this moment and im gonna say to myself "it was worth it". why cant i move and start the life all over again? just to born again.
it's like my heart is breaking. everytime i talk to him i cry after, cry a lot becuase it sucks. and it sucks even more that i dont have people to talk to except him. i can only talk to my mom. god, im so happy she's here with me, i dunno what i would do without her. seriously.
"so far, you see the sky
you cry, you don't know why
it's joy, it's happiness
the rainbow makes you feel high
so far, you see the sky"
2 comments:
Have you thought about seeing a counselor to help you work your way through this? I've gone to counseling when emotions were ruling my world.
This is all part of the wisdom you gain in life, a step toward your future. And one never can predict what the future holds. Give it a chance and see where it takes you. There are many blessings on this Earth to enjoy.
You have a bright spirit and I know the joy people must feel when they're around you.
Yes, you can move forward. When you do, treat yourself to something special and pat yourself on the back.
In many ways it's easier when one grows older because our emotions aren't so up and down. We learn to appreciate the gifts God has given us and they compensate for any pain we're going through.
Blessings that you find something that makes you smile today. Perhaps this is a good time to help others. Others are hurting too.
Sit down and make a list for the things in your life you're grateful for. Soon you'll see God has blessed you in many ways. We walk his Path in life.
Hugs, JJ
just look at the positives in your life. yea it's gonna be hard but keep looking up, seek God and He'll give you everlasting happiness, a full and happy life. things will get better. honestly, if you're on the bottom, the only way you CAN go is up!! stay strong!
♥ ♥
Post a Comment